From Warren Wade
Hello once again from St. Marys Correctional Center.
Another star burns out. Another gifted and talented entertainer dies of an apparent heroin overdose. Philip Seymour Hoffman was found dead in his apartment with a syringe hanging from his arm.
Every time someone injects drugs, do they wonder if this is the one that’s going to kill me? Is this where I contract Hepatitis C or another one of the numerous diseases that come with shooting up drugs?
As I am about to graduate from this residential substance abuse treatment program, I think back over the months and wonder, what all have I learned? I have learned a lot of other residents around me don’t care if they change. I listen to their stories, they don’t complain of being strung out on drugs. Some glorify it. They brag about getting so high they drool on themselves. They brag about smoking meth, shooting up heroin. They tell their “war” stories about getting so high they can’t hold their heads up.
It’s really quite sad to listen to them. Some have no intention to change. Some don’t want to. All the months of trying to pound something positive into their heads has been in vain.
Not all of us. I for one have learned a lot. I know my journey down this road was not in vain. I’ll be one of the statistics this program helped.
I don’t believe a person can be helped if they’re not ready to change. Just because we entered this program doesn’t mean we’re all ready to change.
It seems to me, once a person comes to prison, there’s not much of a deterrent left, even death doesn’t seem to scare some. Once strung out, some would rather die than go through withdraws. Drugs can actually bring a person to a point in their lives where they don’t care if they live or die.
Education is the only tool to prevent this disease. Everyone cannot be saved. Some will always fall through the cracks. Addiction is like any disease. It’s hard to stop once started. The best medication for this disease is complete abstinence-no substituting one drug for another.
The best advice I can offer to avoid this disease is to never try it, never experiment with drugs or alcohol. An avoidance disease? Yes, we do have a choice. Chase your dreams, not drugs!
Warren Wade #31735
St. Marys Correctional Center