From Warren Wade
To the Editor:
Hello. . . just in case you forgot me. . . I am your disease. . .
I hate meetings. I hate higher powers. I hate anyone who has a program. To all that I come in contact with, I wish you death and I wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of addiction. I am cunning, baffling, and powerful. That’s me. I have killed millions and I am pleased.
I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover. I have given you comfort, haven’t I? Wasn’t I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die, didn’t you call me? Better yet, I love to make you numb so you can neither cry nor hurt, when you can’t feel anything at all. This is true gratification. And all that I ask from you is long-term suffering.
I’ve been there for you always, when things were going good in your life, you invited me. You said you didn’t deserve these good things, and I was the only one who would agree with you. Together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life. People don’t take me seriously. They take strokes seriously, heart attacks. Even diabetes they take seriously. Fools, without me . . . These things would not be possible. I am such a hated disease, and yet, I do not come uninvited. You choose to have me over reality and peace.
More than you hate me, I hate all of you who have a 12-step program. Your programs, your meetings, your higher powers . . . All these things weaken me, and I can’t function in the manner I am accustomed to.
And until we meet again, if we meet again, I wish you death and suffering.
Unlike heart disease and diabetes, addiction is a disease that can be very simple to avoid.
Just say no! Chase your dreams, not drugs!
Warren Wade #31735
St. Marys Correctional Center